Friday, January 05, 2007 ♥
im sitting next to ronald.
=))))))
i keep calling him raymond.
when he smiles,my heart melts;literally.
i should take a pic of him smiling.
but we have not talked yet.
shy shy marrr.
his fingers are long and cute.
oh god.
wahha.
ok.
no im not crushing on him.
ouh i miss zk.


i cant seem to sleep well.
yesterday,i didnt realise i fell asleep.
i woke up to my constant coughing.
it was soo bad.
but im not doing anything bout it.
i kinda like my deep voice now.
wahaha.

im sharing classes with ahmad.
im so gonna sit next to him.
s'long since we criticized each other.

my brother's being a dog.
why cant i have a normal brother.
who gives his sister money when she goes bankrupt.
who stands up for his sister when she's being bullied.
who isn't ashamed to sit next to her in public.
who doesn't brutally punches her sister just for fun.
who doesn't criticize her for making a tiny mistake.
who doesn't hog the remote control and watches stupid cartoons that aren't even funny.
who isn't sadistic.
why?
maybe im not worth it.
im sick.
and tired.
if i complain,they say i dont respect.
dude,how can i respect if he doesnt?

thats why i dont believe violence can solve problems.
yet i still do it.
i learnt that you cant fight fire with fire.
maybe you just have to accept it.
maybe the fire would blow away soon.
maybe.

my brother is the main source for the loss of relationships i ever had.
maybe,maybe im over reacting.
maybe you have to see it from his point of view.
maybe.

im feeling deluded.
im feeling misplaced.
im feeling a little too sick.
what im feeling is not nice.

-mona

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