Wednesday, January 28, 2009 ♥
i have misplaced my voice.
i cant find it.
if you see it,give me a buzz.
for the hols,i had family day.
on mon,went to sentosa.
took the skyride and luge twice.
the luge was so super fun.
its like a go cart only you dont have a steering wheel and no pedal.
and there were alot of corners that my brother and i did drifting with the song fast and furious cheering us on.
okay i lied about the song.
it was so enjoyable.
went little india after that to get some drinks before going home.
on tuesday night,we had steamboat at home.
mama wanted to try making steamboat.
it was like last years lunar new year.
we went to seoul garden then.
fun.
so i worked today.
i had a new blouse and a new bag.
right,now all i need is new shoes.
today is one of the better days of work.
i reliefed p6 classes.
they did their work quietly.
i didnt have to use my voice much.
i quite adore 6RP.
they are very much fun.
especially the monitor with his large forehead and constant singing of malay ballads.
he reminds me of zul,the radio.
but of course,zul sings better and is more goodlooking.
is it just me or is the syllabus for pri school getting harder?
coz there were some questions that got a raised eyebrow from me.
ma said i need to recap my pri school work.
yeah right.
how am i to study when i dont have textbooks?
i miss going to school to study.
yeah,i do.
waking up early,walking to school,reading in the morning,starting of lesson,reading under the table whilst teacher goes through homework.
i swear i have got no idea how i managed to be prepared for my O's.
i know i tried to study early,but failed to do it religiously.
so that left late revisions.
ouh,and i refused to study with my malay friends because i know i wont be able to study much.
so my study partner for my O's was my fave bitch on earth SHU HUI.
=D)).
we'd meet up early in the morn on the day of the paper to recap,and id be nursing a cup of coffee and her a cup of hot choc.
yeah,i badly needed my caffeinne as sustenance to an early paper after hours burning the midnight oil.
well,i did it.
although,now that i think of my results,i wish i hit single digits.
ouh wells.
im happy nonetheless.
i cant wait for results of school posting.
i hope i get choice no. 1.
till then.
im sleepy already.
g'night.
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Saturday, January 24, 2009 ♥
my throat is sore.
and i feel crap.
ive got the flu.
i cant eat solid food.
im downing nestum.
i had a short nap just now.
i dreamt we were going for hari raya outing.
but not the usual bffs.
but ahmad was there.
dear god,i miss ahmad.
one of my eye is puffy.
and it looks damn fugg.
yesterday,i sent three pupils to the GO.
i took p5s.
and theres this boy who is so notorious that when i brought him to the GO,the DM went "you again!"
and this boy had a piercing on his ear luhh.
ahbeng qualified.
i dont like my job lahh.
i dont know how to quit.
because im on call.
as in they call me,i go.
i need money.
for shoes,clothes,bag and lappy.
and bill too.
i want to pay some for my school things instead of relying heavily on dad.
maybe id give dad 500 for lappy then.
idk.
shikin said pay per day is at least 65bucks provided i work 5.5 hrs.
and i worked at least 5.5 hrs everyday for the past five days.
i worked more than trequired on some days also.
i hope by the end of the month i have enough for everything.
i plan to give some bucks to mom and dad,mkngah and the grans.
for the restu.
currently im looking at britney spears lyrics.
ive got noth to do lahh.
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Thursday, January 22, 2009 ♥
ive been doing relief gigs for this week starting monday.
it is so tiring.
and i almost lost my voice shouting.
i dont think i want to be a full time teacher.
and i quite like teaching pri6.
because they dont cry as much as other pri students.
and today,there was a parent who came to the GO.
seems like the class i was reliefing yesterday had this boy who was injured.
see,after i took the class for pe,the boy came to me saying he was pushed.
he showed a slight scratch on his arm to me.
i called upon those who were involved,made them apologize to each other.
for the rest of the day,they were fine,playing with each other even though i told them not to.
so to my horror,when i walked to the GO,the principal talked to me in front of the parent.
the boy had bruises on his legs.
she said he was kicked.
but i only know that he fell down.
i told my side of the story,i said the boy didnt tell me about the bruises at all.
and the principal said about me being relief and not having much experience in dealing with the students.
she told me how i should send students down to the GO should they misbehave.
i went back to the staffroom with my heart crushed.
and i was only 730am and i had a lot more hours to go.
i stared at the desk given to me,thinking about what happened.
i was at my low point.
i went into class at 8.
reliefed the class with the boy inside.
and some complained to me how the boy is disturbing them.
i feel as if in front of his parent,the boy would behave as if he's a holy angel.
but behind them,they know nothing about his rough ways.
as i prepared to sign off for the day,a lady told me to not take it to heart about the early days thing.
i smiled and said thank you.
i cant help wonder why the students are not being respectful to me in terms of listening to my instructions.
but should another teacher enter the class,they'd be so quiet.
i feel as if the teacher would look at me and know i cant control a class.
and maybe feedback at the GO about my inexperience.
and maybe the GO wont employ me anymore.
why does this kind of thing happen to me constantly?
this sucks.
i taught malay today and i spoke like an indonesian.
i even sneaked a call to izzati to ask if kumpulan is a penjodoh bilangan.
clearly,i do not deserve the A2.
i wasnt even sure about the pri6 imbuhan.
it was like sec school work.
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Monday, January 19, 2009 ♥
so today i had my first day of relief teaching.
god!!
i went in with the impression of cute kids who sit down and talk quietly.
boy was i wrong!
i was assigned to a pri 4 class.
they were havoc man!
one was a gangster wannabe.
he came to me when i reprimanded him again and again to do his work.
he said "what cher,what cher?want fight ah?i got black belt in taekwando"
and he barely came up to my breast level.
baik uhh.
then another shocked me speechless.
he said
"Cher!He(points to friend) said my cock spoil"
i was wth?????
i said "what is wrong with you?do you know that is rude?"
the class almost reduced me to tears.
i shouted at them countless of time.
but to no avail.
i just got a call from the school again.
im reliefing again tomorrow.
shit!
4graciousness.
i hope they live up to their class name.
be in school by 710.
i told moms and pops about my day.
and they keep laughing at me.
i tried bribing pops to do relief tomorrow.
but he doesnt want to take my place.
the pays good uhh. about 11/hr.
although the class today was a horror story come true,
there were some good kids.
ahaha.
what ive learnt today is to be stern and to ignore tattletales.
pffft.
till i blog next time honeyys.
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Thursday, January 15, 2009 ♥
currently,im blog-hopping at myspace.
im reading celebs blogs.
and it makes me wonder what their life is about.
what does it feel to be hunted by paparazzis.
what does it feel to know that you cant really have much secrets.
well maybe i'll be a shrink then.
so yesterday,went out with ahmad to discuss about his JAE.
and i just submitted mine tonight.
my first three choices are similar to his.
i hope we'll get into the same school and class aye?
so today went out with idah to discuss about her DAE.
i hope she gets what she wants.
today i called various primary schools near my area to ask about relief teaching spots.
so far admiralty and fuchun has my particulars.
well,i hope they call me soon.
i need to earn those green notes.
cause im dead broke.
no,seriously,im broke.
im down on my last 2 bucks.
say,if i should set up a donation can outside my apartment,would you come donate?
this is so pathetic.
im so pathetic.
im a loser with no life.
pfftt.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009 ♥
you do what you do best,and i do what i do best; READ.i have decided.
i am going to place business administration(SP) as my first choice.
and see how it goes lah.
ahmad also made it his first choice.
hopefully same class keh bestie?
ahaha.
i think my bill for this month will be real high.
dad,im sorry.
so i called fatin.
damn i miss her.
our call kept hanging up.
so then,ahmad called.
and we the call got cut off.
and i waited for him to call me.
and he waited for me to call him.
so we waited and waited.
and waited some more.
and waited a little more.
and waited until he sent me a message.
'both of us waiting for the other to call.
because incoming is free.
forget it lah,im going to sleep.'
ahahahaha.
omg,i cant stop smiling cz its so true.
so he confessed already.
way to go.
alritey.
g'nite everyone.
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Monday, January 12, 2009 ♥
the wait is finally over.
i thank God for my good results.
L1R4 11,R5 15.
im satisfied,yes.
im grateful too.
i was so happy not failing any subject.
although bio and chem was suprisingly badly done.
but okay i guess.
grades are as follow.
Eng: A1
E Maths: A2
A Maths: B3
Physics: B4
Chemistry: C6
Biology: C6
Combined Humanities: B3
Malay: A2
thats it i guess.
=)))
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Saturday, January 10, 2009 ♥
i wonder if you are avoiding me.
and i wonder why?
i dont like being rejected.
i believe that's my weakness.
so i lay in bed at night.
with no light source,facing the wall.
and i thought about the good old days as theysay.
and i start feeling this weird feelings of ache coursing through my veins.
and my fingers tingle and my arms had goosebumps.
and my heart ached so much.
oh how it ached.
dear God,if only He could take this pain away.
so my eyes starts to well up and slowly,drop by drop,i cried in the dark.
because only He knew the reasons to my tears.
well maybe its just a touch of the old period.
but i think not.
only i know that it hurts.
make me a promise.
don't forget me okay?
♥
Wednesday, January 07, 2009 ♥
dear god,can my life get any more boring?
im like such a housewife.
get me a husband and i'll be producing a baby every ten months.
nine,for the pregnancy and then next month for the heavy flow of menstruation.
seriously,i have got no life.
and i cant believe that im even enjoying cooking.
can you say makcik outloud?
i wake up at 8,catch friends rerun,get back to bed to read.
start to do housework at 12.
cook at 2.
read till 5.
fetch fatin from school at 6.
as you can see,i have got nothing worthy to do.
like wth?
keh will be going to SP on fri.
hey whats up?are you avoiding me?what have i done?
this isnt good for our friendship.say it outloud okay?
imyvm.
♥
Saturday, January 03, 2009 ♥
you know the movie strictly sexual?
yeah i finished watching the second part of it.
its really a great movie.
its like romance with a reality bite to it.
its good.
story is about how two woman,one a writer(donna) and the other a fashion designer(christi ann) hooked up with two construction workers at a bar thinking the men were gigolos.
so the story goes how the women are bored with relationships going sour and employed the two men,staney and joe,to be their live in gigolos.
christi ann hook up with joe and donna with staney.
and it all comes down to how they fell in love with eachother.
christi ann finally go together with joe while staney and donna didnt really work.
its a sweet movie.
i love it.
i love the part when joe said to CA "would you kick me out if i told you i love you?"
and joe is uber hot lah.
Johann Urb plays joe.
theres alot of explicit scenes going on.
and joe is like omzfg.
ahaha.
so hot uhh.
and bobby tonelli who plays mr paul in the little nyonya ia also hot.
strong facial bones.
i frealing like.
i am currently addicted to romantic comedy movies.
keh,i wanna watch casanova.
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Friday, January 02, 2009 ♥
i cant think about it.
everytime i wonder a little,
i start getting butterflies in my tummy.
and i start getting panic attacks and being nauseous.
damn.
im scared.
so when IS the results coming?
how can the past O candidates take this shit man?
btw,i want oxford heels.
size8/40.
thank you.
i need a job asap.
seriously.
and im already considering timezone.
dear god.
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