when im bored,and in need of a laughter.
imyvm.

today,i went to school alone since syamsi declined to go with me. in the end i got my ass groped by an uncle whose feathery light touches on my ass froze me for a second.scary thought.and just when i was feeling-feeling sexaayy.or maybe it was just a figment of my imagination.but i seriously think he groped me.naughty uh.

today,for GEMs,i don't know what we did and still do not know what we talked about.i know there were counselling stuff.but whatfuck.


today,after GEMs,went Mcds for lunch.then,i flirted with a chem processing senior(year3) at the counter of Mc just because i do not want to queue up to redeem a small fries which my friends won for the monopoly thing. he redeemed it for me.so sweet. as such,i shall love all chem processing ppl for a day starting in 2 minutes time.


today,after school,went to lot1 to wait for shu hui wher we discussed grave matters while bitching about people.okay,so mostly i was bitching.i'm mean.and nasty.and cynic.still wanna be friends?


today was a fruitful day.what would tomorrow bring?veggies?
-.-


i wanna say a happy advanced 17 to my bestfriend,
AHMAD.
i wouldnt wanna type in colours and big fonts coz he is not reading this.bleahh.sms lah.

sometimes,i act so dumb,i embarrass myself even when i know im alone.
so i bought new sanitary pad for my menstruation.
i got myself a new brand instead of the usual,because i thought to myself,i wanna try something new before i died.
so as i sat on the toilet bowl in the toilet(duh,toilet bowl-toilet),i opened the packaging.
i asked myself,why is this thing so thick?
compared to my usual kotex stuff which is thin.
i like my pads to be dry-weave and not the cotton one.
so this one is dry-weave too.
so then i looked closely at the pad and saw that the sticky side has "another pad".
so i thought maybe this pad is like those pantyliners i see on tv ads where there is another layer after you peel the first one.
so i tried peeling off the first layer.
and as i started,i saw that im actually dismembering my pad,and that there is no extra layer of pad.
the pad is naturally thick.
FML.

HELLO!
im a lazy fucktard but who cares?so,yesterday,had another surprise mini.
was supposed to meet shu hui,told to walk all the way to the centre of the cabin where i was "surprised" by jo and christine.then trained to bugis,where they brought me to seoul garden for s treat.heee!!im getting fat-ter.anyways,went in and saw soon seng,ming hong and yong sen!hahhh.surprised?definitely.
so thank you guys for an awesome day and night.thank you for watching me cry.thank you for the sword.
yes,if you look at the pictue,properly,im holding a plastic sword they got me after spending an hour in the arcade in Iluma.ahhaa.it was my birthday present.thanks!


okay,ill recount my birthday.my birthday date itself was a boredom.but!my birthday in general was great.
THANKS alot for the sweet,sappy sms and facebook messages.


so the m2 gang.
-Izzati told me the night before on thurs,151009,that she fought with her bf and wanted me to accompany her watch her bf play soccer while a mutual friend wanted to discuss with them about their relationship.Since the mutual friend was more closer to the bf,i agreed to accompany her to be on her side or somewhat.
so then,we met at RP on fri,161009.
being clueless,i dont know stuff about RP.
she brought me up a slope(tiring!) because she said she was hungry while i talked to her about stuff.so then she brought me to this building,then she said hey,look there.
i turned,and saw a couple bottle of drinks.i didnt see the cake.then i saw movements.
and my friends since sec 1 jumped out from where they were hiding and said "SURPRISE!!".
and being the loser that i am,i burst into tears.hahhh.
sweeet!
i hugged everyone except muslim.he doesnt want my hug.hahh.too bad lorr.
so i got a Ripcurl,tote cum sling,a shawl and a headphone!
love it!


on thursday,the same day,i was actually out at vivo with jannah.walked,accompanied her get her bag at topshop,ate ljs,ate ben and jerrys and shopped like hell at diva!i so love it lahhh!


monday the 121009,met with jan and syaf.
jan got to my house and we te cup noodles with coke(a must have when we gather) and watched stupid scary movies which we rented.got ready,met syaf at cwp for our movie.
since she was from school,she was in her uniform.so i started a lie based on the old rules from timezone.
i told her,no student admissions after 6.since she was in her uni and all,i was like what if you cant go in?
so made our way to pastamania for dinner, where she tried putting her bigass paperclip on the logo on her pocket.so then she was like go cotton on,find cheap clothes uh.but since we all claimed to have no more money,we went to value shop to buy a $3 shirt.and we all chipped in money for the shirt.off to the toilet to change,then we snapped pictures.i couldnt hold my laughter.
so we told her about the lie when we were in the theater already.and we laughed like fuck.
Phobia 2 was a shit.i hated every single part of it.it was gory and i closed my eyes at every bloody scene.hahh.


my SP classmates so sweet! they got me a bag,a teddy bear who has been sleeping next to me every night since,a box of toblerone chocs which im conserving,2 necklaces and a bangle. thank you!heeee!

i watched my sister's keeper yesterday at Iluma.and for the whole about 2 hours show,i cried for the whole two hours. i cried for the lost of love,for the hopeless thought that she'd live.i cried when anna said"My sister died that night".i cried so noisily that when the lights were on,everyone turned to look at me.and my eyes were so red,and my tissue so wet,that i had no more tissues except the wet variety which i took from seoul garden.its a good show,and i wanna watch again,this time with ahmad.i wanna cry like fuck.
its so sad,that when i tried explaining to jo and shu hui, i teared up again.
really poignant.

idah made me cry on the phone just now.i realised that my hopes and dreams of having a surprise party are for naught.as such,im no longer hoping and dreaming.i'll pine for one for sure.but naah,im not getting any.sad?you bet'cha i am.in five minutes time,i shall do whatever i want to do.for now,let me bring on the works.

goodbye.

OMGOMGOMG!!!

suddenly,i was like super excited for my upcoming birthday.

my heart pounded against my ribcage(aiyahh,science facts not true your problem lah).

my eyes widened and i had difficulty in breathing properly.

ahhhhh!!

i shall blog properly in an hours time.

or not.

heeeeee!

i shall dance my merry dance now.

this picture is scandalous but i love it.

AAAAAAHHHHH!

12 more days.

yesterday went to the library to help a close friend pen a love letter to his girl.

and i must say those words i penned, were so sweet that if you were to give it to me,i'd cry.

as such,im calling out for those clueless who'd wanna pen down love letters for their current loved ones,to come forward for i charge measly sum of money for sweet moments to bring to your girl/boy.

since i was at the library,i borrowed this memoir by Judith Moore.

her story intrigued me right from the first chapter's first sentence.

she began with "You're too fat to fuck".

and my heart went crashing as i read on.

its about how she consistently goes on a diet and walks every morning,yet,her weight keeps yo-yo-ing up and down.

and sometimes,i feel her.

like really,i feel her sadness and her disappointment,her disgust.

and sometimes,we have the same thought too.

i'll type down those words i really share with her.

i hope it doesn't happen to me.

it seems that i only get out from my bed to bathe when i find it necessary to go out.

say,yesterday,i bathed at 12 to go to the library and today at around 12 to go to Fairprice.

i got myself some brunch!

i made some creamy chicken mushroom soup(DUH!can.) and bought garlic spread.

so i had soup with garlic bread.

super yummy!and fulfilling.

since i've been sad these few days,i got myself a self-help book from the library yesterday.

it a girlfriend's guide to getting the skinny on fat.

meaning, it tells us(me,mostly since im the reader) about the misconceptions about weights.

and i don't want to lose weight,rather i want to lose my fat content.

and the best form of excercise is anaerobic excercise which doesnt use oxygen.

when your muscles gets oxidised,you will lose it.

thus you dont see bulky,muscular athletes running,rather,thin lean and mean people running.

makes sense huh?

i found out that im not obese by calculating my BMI.

omgzz.

im'ma start walking far since walking is the basic form of excercise.

and drink lots of water.

but all these,shall start after thursday.

thursday's the day im meeting with jo and shu hui for a round or two or many at seoul garden.

excercise can wait.

im a procrastinator at heart.

=)

maybe because you think i'm easy,you stuck close.

maybe because i gave you the time of the day,you stuck close.

maybe because you thought i'd never have anyone to be with me,you stuck close.

or maybe it was just me and i stuck close.

huhh.

i turn fluff-brained when you do that.

and then i think and i thought and i realised maybe its just a trick of the eye.

or maybe you're not that much of a man.

or maybe.

i dont know,maybe you don't have respect enough for me.

but no matter what.

we've been through alot,and i meant it.

i still love you but not love love but love respect.

only thing is,i need to stop my heart from beating that hard and fast.

i just don't get myself.

im'ma lay here with my new boyfriend.

huhh.you thinking what im thinking?i think you are.cheers mate.