hoho.
i have to blog this.

you see,
a few days ago,
izzati called like a damsel in distress.
she was outside paragon.
and shes alone.
she was sick.
she was hungry,while she waited for a certain someone who im not fond of.

because she was scared of the crowds who she said were staring at her,
she called me,her bestfriend.
she was like,
fana,im scared,im alone.
im sick and i feel like fainting.

then being the kind of friend i was,
i laughed at her,
heck i could have rolled on the floor.
but i was like,
"haha,okay not?haha.
eh,you better on your gprs now.
if you fainted halfway,i call the police,
then i tell them my friend fainted but dont know where she is.
but she has her gprs on,so you can track her down easy."

then she was silent.
i kept laughing.
and she was like okaylah.funny.i give you b4.
i mean like?

then just now,being the nicest friend i know,
she accompanied me while i ate mcds.
she was fasting you see.
then i ate.
then we walked past the traditional chinese medicine shop.
then i glanced at the teas.
i was like,
"hey,mama once gave me to drink one of those tauu.
and they tasted nice.do you like tea?"

and she was like,
"i dont like tea,i only like one kind"

and i asked her what.
and she replied "Izzati(izza-TEA)"

and i kept laughing and gave her an A2.
hahha.

izzati makes me laugh like hell.


ouh and you,
if you wanted attention,
scream "I WANT ATTENTION" out loud.
that should get you the one you crave.
and dont go around pointing fingers.
tattletales arent tolerated.

=)
loves.

you wanna know why i wont make a good secretary?
a)im not organised;according to someone,my bags like a gold mine when finding a certain paper.
b)i do not do assignments and hand in on time.
c)i am too lazy to even try to organize.
d)i just dont DO secretarial business.

its seems like everyday this week i have a test.
feck.
im not ready alright?
okay i think i am actually.
=))

i have just completed my weekend assignment due today.
to be sent to ms lee.
but i aint have her email.
ouh well,
;=/

tmr will be the day china pupils come.
i shall try to refresh my mandarin lessons with jo.
huhuhu.

im gonna go through the catalogue mama got just now.
it has a range of things.
from make-up to handbags to clothings to facial wash.
ooooo.

okeh dah.


maybe thats why you suck.

hello,
im at atuk's house.
but kinn's not here.
only the kids.
and im taking advantage of the comp.
nenek told me to find recipe,so atuk on comp for me.

am skipping madrasah tomorrow!
heho.
good coz kinn wont be there tmr(due to the effin' camp)
and,atuk told mama that i will be sleeping here.
i actually smsed mama this:
I dun wanna sleep here tauu.
and mama called to tell atuk to let me go home.
and atuk was like never mind lah.
then im like anything lah.
rite,you dont get it do ya?

ouh and please,
if you call my hp,i wont answer,at all.
unless youre abah,or mama.
=))

i dont know why but all of a sudden,i like doing maths.
it gives me this calmness.
like i dont even like maths in the first place.

and i adoooore chemistry in a big way.
like so big,you mighta mistake it for not big at all.
huhuhu.
heho,

and i miss jannah and syafiqah.
like i miss them like so much,
you could mistake me for being gay like wentworth miller.
heho.
like seriously heho.
=))

im supposed to be doing research for the social studies quiz.
like mdm rosna RECOMMENDED me.
like recommended bebeh.
X)

huhuu.
its been fun blogging.
kinn,come back from effing camp lah.
if not who am i to go for midnight suppers with?
<33

maybe i should take a step back.
and review all my past mistakes.
for i am human.
an err is human.

and i have songs stuck to my head.
constant nodding creates an ache.
for i am human.
illnesses are prone.

and beware of them transparent sharks.
for they bite when you're unaware.
look around,
you'll see them as a fox in a sheep's clothing.

firstly, i would like to thank all those who asked if im okay during my period of illness.
i would like to say 3m5 is a nice class to be in.
i love you guys.

now,being sick is good.
it gets you away from presenting something to the class,
it gets you away for not finishing homework,
and most imporatantly it gets you away from being punished for sleeping in class.

i slept in between classes yesterday.
i slept during pe.
how?
i snuggled in between walls.

heck i was shivering like a drug addict.
and i had constant flu.

but it was fun.
being sick.
thanks again to those who told me to get better soon.
=)

i know.
im sick,i should not eat ice cream.
but heck it was worth every damn bite.
or lick.
okay,so now i feel breathless.
its like theres trapped warm air in my oesophagus.
gullet.
throat.
gaaarrrhhh.
i dont wanna go to school.
and i passed a maths.
=)

laugh your freaking asses out.

cross country.
forced ming rui to run.
ran.
walked.
laughed.
waited for imran to finish prayers before we went to eat.
we being izzati and me and imran.
laughed.

imran has one of the most beautiful eyes that you could drown yourself into.
im serious.

im too tired and lazy to do anything but breathe.

yak yak yak.
nag nag nag.
complain only.
shut up larh!

i have nothing left to say.
im not elaborating.
maybe you dont really know me do you?
im a woman of a thousand secrets.
and i dont wanna tell.

i need a confidant.
i need to see my councillor soon.
or maybe return to those times which i remember fondly.
maybe i miss you.

so siti told me about you know who.
because i asked her about you know what.
then i was like okay.
i mean you know me,
i may be friendly but i have this great ego.
that refuses to back down.
i used to say sorry too.
but i have been you know,hurt by the word.
its like every single mistake,people go sorry.
but they dont naturally mean it.
get what i mean.
so ive built an exterior that kinda shields me from things.
cheh,like transformers like that.build exterior seh.
okay.

i like this part from when we die by bowling for soup.

And I know that we're gonna be fine
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time
As long as we live, time passes by
And we won't get it back when we die


and im fasting.
and its 2 more hours till buka time.
:)

im feeling like third party.
everywhere i go,i feel as if im totally ignored.
yeah,go out with friends.
everyones got their partners.
and im left alone.
and then i ponder,
what am i here for exactly.
sure i provide entertainment.
but if im not here,the world wont be affected.
its like..
no shant say.
ive said what i wanna say.
its time i guess.

and i saw idah today morning when she was going for madrasah.
she was wearing tudong.
cute.
you see,i love idah.
shes nice.
she cares.
shes my confidant.
she knows my secrets.
i love her to bits and pieces.

today was okay.
bad mood though.
i was mad.
i was livid.
i was angry at everyone.
i hated eberything for a few hours.
i was GAARRRHH!

then maths made me okay.
yes,i said maths.
funny huh?

anyways,
just now waited for siti to finish sports leaders meeting.
talking to zul.
then i did something and he said,
fana,kau nak attention kau cakap jer lah.
then i was like.
okay.I WANT ATTENTION!!!
i shouted actually.
then zul went running away.
hahaha.

okay.
caught transformers yesterday.
fuyooo.
best.
cute.
especially when that robot thingy breakdanced.
and then bumblebee is cute.
and megan fox wasnt that hot at all.
and that soldier guy i was having the hots for turns out to be fergie's fiance.
whatever.
fun though.
halfway through the movie i felt nature calling me.
i was too numb to move after the movie finish.
if i continue not going to the toilet,i might have that stone thingy.
ouh well.

=))

i updated okeh.
and harry potter is out today.
probably catching it soon.
anyone up for it?
loves.

jump pics.
i have nother one.
with ss,my bitch.
but i look like a bitch in that.
=))

im considering to change blog song.
i want change to dark lunacy-stalingrad.
but then i try find the song cannot.
dont have.
baba kedodeng betul.
haha.
whats baba kedodeng?
and i totally love humanities.
i aim to be the high scorer for humans.
go humans!
woo.
not the people but the subject.
geddit?
okeh.
watching transformers on wed with ahmad,zul,syafiq and afiqah.
siti pulled out.
yeah,
shit happens.
=))

am watching harry potter part 4 on hbo.
woo. cedric diggory is hot.
and harry.
yeah harry is too.
and the twins are freaky funny.
okeh.
dah.
today was okay.
=))

i was looking through friendster.
when i saw who i thought once my friend.
then the song way back into love came on.
and that was it.
i think i belong in a box.
sometimes,sometimes knowing too muich kinda hurts see.
ive been there,done that,got the t-shirt.
maybe,maybe.

dear friend,i miss you.
i miss those times we went studying.
i miss those times when wed walk back from school together.
i miss those times youd show me funny video clips.
i miss those times wed talk on the phone.

i remembered once we watched my name is earl.
and when the commercial started,wed call and recap.
i miss those times when wed laughed at those jokes you collected.

i think im making a fool of myself.
i should end this.
i have alot to say.
but no one would wanna hear a fat girl cry eh?
haha.
shit.

ouch.
it hurts.
real bad.
its like ive been running all this while.
and now,i turn a corner.
and ran smack into a wall.
it hurts so bad that im lost.
i dont know where im headed to.
so much for fairytales.
so much for happily ever after.
its like escaping from someplace dangerous.
and being led to a place more dangerous.
damn.
im upset.
i need my comfort zone.
heh,what comfort zone do i have?
all my trust is gone.
so much for friendship.
i wanna shout it all up.
i wanna stop this.
this ugly feeling.

its true.
jealousy kills.
im in need of a shoulder.

the story of me.
my once upon a time ended short.

well,on a brighter note,i didnt actually embarrass myself did i?
well maybe i did.
shit happens you see.
damn.

teddy geiger,
be my bf will you?
at least you wont disappoint.

okay.so you wanna see a picture?
i was browsing through friendster when i went to shikins profile.
i went looking at her pictures.
and you wont believe it.
she just had to upload a picture when we were small.
and when i was making freaking silly faces.
damn seh.
but hey,
you readers of mine.
go laugh your ass out.
theres the picture of me and shikin.
im in white.
but i do kinda look cute.
huhu no shame seh.
when we were young,its cute to make ugly faces,but now when you make an ugly face,people would go eeyer act cute only.
hiuhuhuh.
enjoy.

damn.
i just forgot what i was supposed to post about.
damn.
im serious.
wait i think first.

okeh lets talk about things while i try remember what i want to post about.
went civic with siti and izzati.
they wanted to deposit money,
im so trustworthy that i know both their pin codes.
so i typed in sitis pin and helped her deposit.
im learning the tricks till i get my own CREDIT CARD.
i need a CREDIT CARD because later what if i went shopping and i din bring enough money?
i can take out my CREDIT CARD to pay.
and with my CREDIT CARD,i can withdraw money whenever i want.
wooo.

that is,assuming i get my CREDIT CARD.

hp is being a pain in my ass.
i cant get any connection in my room.
its like when smsing i have to go to the window so that message cn be sent.
like eff off lah.
i miss those days without a hp.

ahmad started to disturb me about hp.
and i went off sulking to assembly.
set next to my bitch.

during english,we were told to do essay.
i kept talking and laughing with bitch.
i love my bitch.
essay writing was to describe a friend in class.
so i wrote about bitch.
and he wrote aboutme.
jo wrote about me too,and ming hong.
see how they love me.
que awwws.
uhuhuhu.

now i remembered what i wanted to write about.
next wed,i will join ahmad,syafiq and siti to watch transformers.
i still do not have a clue what the storys about.
then the week after next,we will be watching harry potter.
now this i wanna see.
harry potter and the order of the phoenix.
this part,harrys godfather will die,killed by his cousin.
best dok.
i read the book 3 times.
it a thick book.
i took five days to finish it.

so,i have to save up yeh.
okay im done.
am sending fatin to school from carecorner.
damn.
im like a maid in this house.
a bloody unpaid tired to the freaking core maid.
ok dah.
=)))

i want go out with idah.
i miss her.

told them besties of mine about 14 august.
huhuh.
it would be our one year anniversary.
huhuh.
so i might buy him a card you see.
its the longest.
the first was for four months.
huhuh.
go figure.
=))

i was chatting with idah on the phone.
i was freaking pissed.
so on comp.
wanted to try hacking.
mama put new password you see.
soiwas chatting while trying.
and i got it.
i got the password.
woohoo.

=))

ouh and if someone sing me that malay song id be so happy.
the hari ini by 6ixth sense.
fuyooo.
layu beb.
id be sooo happy like fweaking hell.
wooo.

watched jump last sun.
wore formal.
then huhuhuhu.
them boys said i looked like sitis mama coz i was wearing tudung.
then they said i looked slim in my clothes.
and i was like.
okay.
thats the first i heard.
huhuhuh.
nah,i think im not bothered with people calling me fat anymore.
i got too used to it that it doesnt hurt.

then when in the esplanade,
we were going up the escalator when it stopped halfway.
and they boys blamed me.
boohoo.
well,
IM SORRY THAT MY BIG FAT ASS WAS TOO HEAVY FOR THE BLOODY CRANKING MACHINE TO CARRY YOU ALL UP.
MAYBE YOU SHOULD GET ME A LIPOSUCTION OR SUMTHING.

damn,
no im not mad.
i laughed the whole thing off.
i love my classmates.

photos are with siti coz i forgot to bring my cam.

jump was funny.
damn,if you missed it,you are soo rugi.
it was so funny i laughed till tears ran out my eyes.
the martial arts was good.
then the lights went off.
and my scarve(tudung) glowed in the dark.
i told siti and we kept laughing.

see how i make a fun of myself and still laugh at me.
huhuhu.

best friend is emceeing on fri.
im sooo gonna clap big time.

and english teacher is a bore and a pain.
im sorry.
im beginning to LOVE mrs choo.
love,love,love,love,love,love,love makes the world go round.

okay.
dah.
niteynite all.
=))

Siti Nur Farhanah.
Seven-teen.
211092
I don't smile at strangers,especially female.
I burrow my soul in books for they are my place for escape.
Talk to me and maybe I'll listen,or maybe I'll zone out if you're boring me.



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