Monday, September 22, 2008 ♥
im in a dilemma.
if you can call it that.
im straying away.
i need some space to breathe.
i need some alone time.
ive realised i spent too much time making others happy.
such that i have neglected myself.
sometimes i realise that im laughing.
then i'd keep real quiet.
and hear my laughter stop.
sometimes i'd cry.
only to wonder where my tears originate from.
sometimes i get really angry,
and i try to show it.
but im not those who get angry and mad easily.
i'd bottle up my feelings.
i guess what i'm trying to say is,give me some space.
stop looking at me like i'm doing much wrong.
i may ignore,but i hear you.
i feel guilt-ridden already.
when i turn around to tell about my problems,i realise that i have to share.
i have never done sharing well.
everyone has a partner and all,
who am i going to share my stuff with then.
i would sincerely like to thank my superwomen who has helped me overcome my very existance.
Ms Ng and Ms Chin,you both are the very best.
I love you so very much.
=]
i know it's kind of cliched,
but maybe you should try to see the wry smile underneath the fake big one i show.
i think i should stop feeling this way.
what with my o levels around the corner.
for my 16th,that is on the 21st of october,
maybe one of you could get me an all-expense-paid visit to the shrink.
maybe thats what i need.
a session with the professional.
until then,
farhanah.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008 ♥
its the fasting month.
abstain from food and drink.
prayers not to be left.
holy month of ramadhan.
control mouth.
no vulgarities.
promises i made to myself.
so.
i have been busy.
i dont know doing what.
i read.
i read beverly barton's a murder game.
follow up to the dying game.
i get to learn how the psycho's mind works.
they murder beauties and athletes and take score.
it was quite a good book.
under recommendations from mdm alfiah,
i finally borrowed christine's twilight.
it is good.
and i really mean it.
its romantic and all.
page-turner.
im going to catch the movie when it comes out.
i just watched the trailer.
damn,edward is major hot.
tomorrow,am borrowing new moon from christine.
its the sequel to twilight.
i cant wait,at all.
lisa misciontelli or something nera that,worte a book about how the psychotic mind works.
you can learn about why murderes turn serial killers kill.
its scary but fascinating.
you should try authors like karen rose,karen robard,beverly barton.
i love romantic suspense.
this post is more towards books.
so bear with it.
for contemporary romance,there is susan mallery,susan ellizabeth phillips(my fave!),carly phillips,erin mccarthy,jennifer crusie.
eh seriously kehh.
i want to watch twilight.
birthday present?
hehhs.
=)
