Wednesday, December 10, 2008 ♥
sometimes i wonder if im just your verbal punching bag.
sometimes i wonder should i go away,would you remember me.
i feel as if you wait for me to come back 'home',just to release your stress verbally at me.
and you wonder why i shout,scream and hate you.
when i rant about you at my friends,they reply the same things.
be patient,just dont bother.
and sometimes,they cant believe you could be the monster i talk about.
for in front of people you act as if youre the best,your proper and youre so nice.
but little do they know.
see,ive known you for so many years.
behind closed doors,youre crazy.
hell,youre like a distressed monster unleashed.
i cry myself to sleep at nights while hearing you talk.
for everything i do,you shout at me.
you compare me to other people.
you say how they are nice,courteous,sweet-looking.
and how you have an ugly,loud,foul-mouthed beast as a daughter.
but hey,you want them,go get them.
see,i think youve done something wrong,that maybe God punishes you by giving you me.
and yet,when i just say stuff about other people's luck,you say im comparing you with them.
but didnt you just compare me?
i shout and scream and curse you in my heart,unwilling to do it aloud for i know you'd let some tears out.
did you know,i used to talk to my dead gramma,who i didnt know,to complain about you?
id go "gramma,look at her.im so upset."
yeah,you didnt did you?
and when i was young,i'd pray to God to bring back my gramma back to live.
only that i was too immature to know you don't bring the dead back to live.
im hurt at the words you say.
but you only voice out the hurt you yourself feel.
isnt it unfair.
well,life is unfair.
look at who you got.
i hate it when you are so rude to him.
infront of his sisters and ma,you act as if youre the filial wife.
but behind them,you scold him like theres no tomorrow.
i feel so upset looking at him work so late at night to bring food on the table.
yet you say im an act.
infront of him,ill be filial but behind im a creature.
but i respect him more than you.
i love him more than you.
because he knows me.
im closer to him more than you.
because you choose who to love and you dont love me.
yet i do so much for you compared to them.
i dont cheat you anymore.
this is what i receive.
its okay.
as long as i know im being loved.
'nuff said.
