Saturday, March 14, 2009 ♥
THE FOLLOWING STUFF CONTAINS INFORMATION THAT ARE QUITE PERSONAL TO THE BLOGGER.

sometimes i wish i got the chance to know my grandma.
but sadly,she went before i was born.
dad and ma always talk about her.
how even though she was strict,she was fair.
and sometimes i wonder why i miss her.
i mean,what you dont know,you cant miss right?
but sometimes i just wonder how she'd be.
we'll prob be close.
and there wont be much problems with the family cause she'll be like the matriach y'know.
sometimes,things just dont happen huh?

is it possible to really hate your blood?
sometimes i feel this way.
like getting pissed off and annoyed at them.
i mean being a parent means RESPONSIBILITY.
and having kids means loving all with equality.
if there was any problem in the "product",you cant just chuck them one side and only choose the best of the quantity.
i feel as if you dont give him chances.
you dont show your love to him.
and when we go out together,you'd scold him.
and i feel pity for him,cause no one ever showed him love except maybe his mom.
but thats just it,shes not there anymore right?
and the way i see it,hes like a cinderella.
verbal abuse is his punishment.
like shouldnt he be treated with respect.
hes your very own blood.
sometimes,i cringe to think of why youre treating him this way.
when i was young,id look up to you.
but i dont think of that anymore.
i dont think you deserve to be my role model anymore.
its too much.
and them all,i cant believe you treasure them all more than you treasure your ONLY son.
hell,if we were chinese,hed be the treasured one.
you cant just chuck him out of your life like that.
i feel sorry for him,guilty even,to think of the way i used to treat him.
you know what,you suck.


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