Tuesday, March 17, 2009 ♥
i hate school hols cause mums will not be working.
and it will be like a time bomb to see which one of us will start crying first after shouting matches after shouting matches.
and my guilty conscience will come knocking at my door when im all alone.
and i wonder why i shout at mums when other people with no mums just want a chance to be with the female figure.
i said im sorry mama.
ive never apologised to mums before.
except during eid mubarak.
i wish i could just say those two words.
but its like my mouth was suddenly locked and i cant find the key to open the gate.
IM SORRY!!!!!
if that helps though..
so,mums told me,no ORDERED me to clean the windows.
like omg!
its so dusty like what.
i think its been more than 2 years since i last wiped my window?
as in thoroughly wipe.
i mean what for right?
sunlight still shines through.
so i sweated out like a pig while wiping the windows with wet and dry newspaper so as not to leave a mark.
and my hands were dirty while i sang out loud to every song in my phone which i stuffed in my pocket.
and all the while,my mind kept playing past articles on how maids fall to their death while cleaning windows.
and i had a scenario in my mind on which i really fell down and died.
and mums would be giving an interview to the newspaper(y'know how newspapers always report on death) on how she regretted asking me to wipe the windows and then developed a phobia of cleaning windows.
imagination!!
y'know,i often imagined about my death.
i wonder if my friends would come to my funeral.
i wonder if they would cry at the funeral.
i wonder if they would give an interview to the newspaper.
i wonder what they would tell the newspaper.
i wonder if i had been a good friend or not.
i wonder alot.
then id snap out of my imagination.
and back to the point.
i cleaned my windows and now they are super clean.
and its so clear.
=)))
i always thought of marrying my high school sweetheart.
but since there wasnt any,i want to marry stranger.
and i think there is no limit to getting fat.
you can eat so much,you wont actually burst.
ive been snacking on junks while watching dvds on bebeh.
and i will try to push away the thoughts i have on heart attack and obesity.
im so random today.
i cant wait for idah to come home.
come back soon GF!
i wanna watch ellen interviewing her wife uhh.
funny.
i like ellen degeneres.
