Sunday, May 10, 2009 ♥

i dont think im getting that job.
fucklah,fucklah,fucklah.
no one can feel as fucked up as i feel right now,unless you are of the same situation as me.
or worse.

mom went batam yest.
didnt wake up to send her off.
i got to lie on the bed and read for so long without abah scolding me.
thats why i love him alot alot.
so started the day with folding three rounds of laundry.
i can cry looking at the heaps of clothes.
and my pile of clothes is so little.
abah had the most.
bleaccchhhh.

met jan at shing siong(however you spell it,still the same shop)
we bought,a giant packet of lays,2tubs of ice cream and 2 bottles of coke.
and went 7-11 for ruffles.
went home and watched material girls and legally blonde2.
and we munched and drank and ohhhh.
i just lost a kilo and i think ill gain it all back.
its okay.
maybe ill die of diabetes or high cholesrol or something.
but its okay coz i'll die sooner or later.

went nyayi's house in the eve.
they had murtabak and naan.
i didnt eat.
i was doing poa which made me 'vomit blood'.
reminded me of abahs china co-worker.
ahahahaha.
so then gave up.
nyayi offered rice.
damn,my gramma can cook.
soo sedap lahhh.
went home and crashed.

today abah got called in for work.
so im babysitting fatin and doing my homework.
school starts ALL over again tomorrow.
shit man.
it doesnt feel like school but it is school.
at least theres lecture and ill see patinson..

i think ive figured what to wear.
ive been wearing my clothes again and again.
but its okay.
reuse and recycle kan?
i need a vest.
tau.

i wanna know kan,
can i have a 17th surprise party.
ill act surprise,i swear.
ive practiced my surprise face in front of the mirror everyday.
=))

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