Monday, July 27, 2009 ♥
its funny how life works,does it not?for a while,i was real high up.then the next moment,barely 5 minutes im crying out.nowadays,i can't burst out crying like real crying.i always cover my cries with a laugh though my eyes water.i feel so... fake.why?i cant even be myself when im alone.the phrase "sticks and stones may break my bones,but words can never hurt me" does not ring true for me.i welcome sticks and stones over words.last time,when people teased me,i'd cry.then i'd tell myself,get immune.hurt back.but fuck it.it doesn't work.deep down i still hurt.i still am pissed.i still cry.i don't dare cry anymore because nobody would know what to do.my tears are worth much.if making it fall excites you then,that's that.im gonna have myself a good crying jig.



i got myself a job.income.

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